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3 Things I learned from the lockdown

When lockdown was announced, I panicked a little bit. I wasn’t really scared about the virus itself, because it wasn’t really real yet to me. I don’t think it’s real to anyone really, unless you are in the frontlines, are susceptible to the virus or someone close to you has been infected by the virus. What I was really scared about was being alone. I’ve been living alone for many years but I’ve never been confined to my cottage for long periods of time. Over the years, I’ve even developed what I now recognise as ways to avoid being alone when the loneliness starts to creeps in, none of which I can use during lockdown. So essentially, I’ve been stuck with myself. I’ve learned some very valuable lessons in the last 24 days and I’m here to share em!I don’t need a lotBe it food or company, I actually realised over the past 3 weeks that I don’t need as much as I thought I did. Hell, I’ve managed to work out 6 days a week without any equipment! I haven’t really felt any anxiety about being confined to my home, unless I read some speculative news about what may or may not lie ahead for our country and our world. I haven’t woken up dreading the day ahead nor have I really had hours and hours with nothing to do. I have truly enjoyed this time, and while I look forward to seeing many of my favourite people in the flesh when this is all over, I’m grateful for the time I had to spend with myself! is everythingI’m definitely a wallower if I indulge myself and I can roll around in it for an indefinite amount of time too. But a mindset adjustment was very necessary during this time. Initially, 21 days were announced and I was grateful that a great deal of that time would be spent working, but then the dreaded extension came along and again, an attitude adjustment was necessary. I think the big thing to remember in this regard is serenity: control what you can and leave the rest to the powers that be. That’s it. Whether the lockdown continues for many more weeks or months, it’s out of my control. What I can control is what I do with this time because, believe it or not, it is a blessing of sorts.I am enoughMy mom used to say this a lot: if you don’t enjoy your own company, how do you expect others to? I always thought I was ok to be alone but I discovered early this year that I can’t do it for extended periods of time. I even found myself putting big adventures off because, what would the point be if I was doing them alone? Well, Lockdown has had me doing life alone – on steroids!I must admit, it felt like the walls were closing in on me at first, but the majority of the time, I’ve enjoyed time spent on my own, be it training or cooking, cleaning or writing, sleeping or just lazing around. I have not grown tired of my own company. My yearning to be with other people now has not been in order to get away from myself, and for that realisation, I am so grateful!Look, don’t get it twisted. There are days when I want to throw my toys out the cot because I just want to go out and I wish so badly that things were normal! And some days, I just think there’s nothing to learn from all of this and this just sucks! But that’s ok. Those feelings come and they pass like a wave.So here’s to, hopefully, 10 more days in lockdown! May it be fruitful. May it open your eyes to the wonder that is your life and the wonder that is you! Be safe, everyone! We’ll see each other soon😘

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