Adult Drama

Hey Everyone! Happy Sunday! I head back to work tomorrow and I’m quite excited to get back to a normal rhythm. While taking a break is necessary for rebooting, all good things need to come to an end!

Today, I’m going to be a bit of a Negative Nancy and complain a lot! But I will do so in memes because they say to survive this adulting thing, one has to have one’s humour firmly intact!

Disclaimer:

These are the crazy ramblings of a sleep deprived anxious and frustrated Nubian Queen.

Where do I even start?! There are so many little things that are causing me frustration! And all these little things are kind of tied up to each other making this massive, intangled stressball! It is a mess!!!

There is a rat in my house! It found its way under my front door or through it one day when I left it open on a hot summer’s day! I don’t know! But it found a hole in my built in cupboard and now lives with me! It leaves me alone during the day but starts scratching around at night! I have resorted to cowaring away in my bedroom as soon as the sun sets because as independant a woman as I am, I was not built to go head to head with a rat! I don’t care, feminists, but that is a man’s job!

So because of this damn rat, I am a prisoner in my own home. I am in my bedroom from as early as 8pm. I fall asleep only after 10 and any time from 1am, I am awake again!! Wide awake, guys! I lie there, contemplating whether I should raid my fridge or do some reading in the lounge until I’m sleepy again ( the internet says this helps). But I can’t because there is no cat so the rat must play! This stupid roommate who has imposed himself on me has now messed with my sleep and is hindering my midnight snacking too!

There is a part of me that wants to move out to a rat free aboad. Just imagine: moving around in my living room, free of fear of rodents! But everywhere I look is more expensive with added costs on top of that aaaaaand, there is something I am reluctant to leave behind here in this street (don’t make me unpack that can of worms!) Aaaaand society says that at my age, I should be buying property and not still renting! Aaargh!

At this point, it is 2:30am. I am resigned to die of hunger and am convinced I am a dissappointment as a functioning adult according to the the standards of the world. I have managed to reduce myself to a 33 year old barren spinister who is a prisoner in a matchbox flat that she doesn’t even own with a roomate she didn’t even ask for!

So the solution, I think… I don’t know! When did adulting get so complicated? How many levels to this horrific game are there? I feel like I’m stuck at level 2 and suddenly I’m second guessing all my decisions and all the ways I think are the best way forward. I think I need someone to come into my life, make all the difficult decisions for me, set me up nicely and then leave again and let me step back in because this is beyond me!

So this is adulting, kids! It is a whirlwind of emotions, loss of control and self doubt at worst! The best we can do for ourselves is to make small decisions at a time and go from there. This life thing is, after all, a marathon and not a sprint.

Thank you for reading my petty drama! It’s always a pleasure to have you here🙂 have a fantastic week ahead! We’ll chat on Wednesday😘

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Master of Ceremony

Hey Everyone!

I hope the week is treating you well! I’m still enjoying the last bit of the holiday before I get back to work on Monday! I love my work so this is not something I dread 🙂

So, a few days ago, my friend, who got married in Australia last year, is doing part 2 this weekend with her South African family and friends, asked me to MC at the wedding😳 I have never, in my life MCd anything accept maybe my lessons (but that doesn’t count does it?) so this request was quite daunting!

“Don’t worry, you’ll be great, my friend!” Well, that won me over! I mean, if my very good friend trusts me enough to put me in this position, why can’t I just believe in myself too?

So wish me luck! I’ll give it my best shot and the guests will be mostly excited about the bride and groom more than me, right?! Besides, I don’t remember the MCs at weddings I’ve attended before!

Thank you so much for popping in today! Have a beautiful day and we’ll talk on Sunday😘

Words of Affirmation

Happy first Sunday of the year, dear readers! I trust you have, loosely translated from African languages, entered the year well!

So, as you already know, I’m a high school teacher. You know that right? I’ve spoken about it enough times!

Our academic year ends in December in South Africa and matriculating is quite a big hooha over here! Last year was my first year as a matric teacher which is as big a hooha as matric itself! I was very proud of myself when I got it!

Any teacher will tell you that the first year of teaching any grade is probably the toughest because you are still learning the ropes, and so as teachers we have fast become accustomed to stumbling the first time around and getting ready to go again and be better the second time around!

So the year was tough, learning a new setwork and all the administrative work that comes with teaching this particular grade!

In early January, the results are released nationally so you can imgine the anxiety leading up to the day! I was so blessed to recieve some thank you messages for some of my students expressing their appreciation for the year!

These were, once again, reminders of the impact we have on those around us. I don’t think we fully grasp that and I am here to remind you, no matter what, that someone sees you and you have, are and will leave a mark in people’s lives. Keep doing what you are doing!

Thank you for popping in. It is always a pleasure to have you here.Have a beautiful day😘

Anonymous: A Series

Hello Erbody! Happy New Year! You know all my hopes and dreams for you and me in this new year! If you don’t, do check it out here

So, in the spirit of everything fresh and new and because of how well the Reflections series went, I thought it fitting to start another series!

With the dawn of social media comes a great deal of personal exposure. While in some respects, this is a good thing, in other respects it robs you of your privacy and anonymity. Sometimes I wish I could shout certain things from the a virtual mountain top – but without anyone who knows me hearing it!

So here is Anonymous! One Friday a month, there’s going to be a suprise blog from one my blogger friends. If you’d also like to participate like to participate, please feel free to email me: noloyiso.l@gmail.com and I will drop the post at any time that month! (Don’t worry, I’ll be running this series all year so there is plenty of time!)

You’re allowed to talk about whatever you want that you’ve felt you couldn’t share before!

I hope you’ll take part in this! Thank you so much for coming by! See you on Sunday😘

New

Happy Sunday, dear readers! I cannot believe it is the last Sunday of the year! Time trully flies whether you’re having fun or not!

So the new year calls us to start afresh, to change our bad habits and ultimately change ourselves, right? Every year, I resolve something new. Just last year, I resolved to enjoy my life and find contentment the way it was. As it goes with all our resolutions, this only lasted a few months before I fell off the wagon.

My experience this year taught me one thing: we set goals for our lives but we do not equip ourselves to cope with all the things we aim for and we certainly don’t equip ourselves for tools to deal with the inevitable curve balls that life will inevitably throw at us.

And so this year, what I am praying for is strength and grace for the year. The stuff will come -or not- and my endurance is important to get through the year in more or less one piece!

Reflections: On Being Each Other’s Angels

One of the posts from Noloyiso’s blog that stayed with me long after I read it was when she wrote of an incident: I Need A Hug

It’s weird how sometimes, we are so wrapped up in our own worlds and our own sorrows and it feels as if we are the only ones laboring through great difficulties but around us, are people with equal or even heavier burdens. You never know what a simple word or gesture can mean to someone else.

I believe in angels. They walk amongst us wearing a stranger’s face, sometimes even a more familiar face and we call them friends and family.

In the spirit of reflections, which this post is themed upon, when we look back on the year, may we focus on the good: the good we did, the good that happened and between that all the connections that made us keep moving forward.

Here’s to beginning the year onwards and upwards. Sometimes all we have is each other.

~B

A digital storyteller immortalizing himself the best way he knows how, by writing.

Blog: Becoming the Muse

Twitter: Beatonm5

Visitors

Happy Sunday Everyone!

I hope you’ve had an awesome week!!

So I had my post all typed up and almost ready to publish and this morning I woke up to the nicest suprise!

My friend, Becoming the Muse, aggreed to guest post on my blog (you can catch him this Wednesday on Reflections) and he asked me to guest post on his! So I wrote up a post and sent it to him and completetely forgot about it!

Last night, he finally put it up 😊 It’s a strange feeling hearing your very own voice but on another blog!! And he really pushed me to write in a way and lenght that I don’t normally use on my own blog! Thanks again for having me, Beaton!

Check out the post here 👇 and be sure to check out the rest of his blog! It’s awesome!

https://becomingthemuse.wordpress.com/2018/12/14/of-awesome-impact-coffee-with-noloyiso-2018boty/

It’s always so nice to have you here! Have a good week and I’ll see you on Wednesday😘