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Merry Christmas

Hey Everyone!

It’s almost Christmas!! It’s the most wonderful time of the year! Well, so I thought when I was younger and much more optimistic about, well, life in general.

Sometimes I read my old old blog posts and I wonder what happened to me. I was so full of hope and promise. I was so vibrant and so many things lay ahead of me. I miss that girl, and often wonder if she would have held on to all her sense of wonder had she avoided the unnecessary hardships life had in store for her…

I’ve been thinking about depression a lot later. They say that the festive season is peak time for it and I’ve been wondering why. I dare not speak about anyone else’s experiences except my own so I’ve been in retrospect, looking at why I find myself down during the festive season.

It took me longer than it should have to book my ticket and to pack my bag for the trip home this year. I dreaded every bit of the journey because it has become tedious. I also dreaded a lot of what was waiting for me here. The raised eyebrows at my lack of a baby bump or ring on my finger for example. Over the years, they no longer actually ask, but the expectant looks still speak volumes. Sometimes the family’s disappointment at my empty handed arrival is enough to make me want to fly away and stay away.

When I was younger, I looked forward to an awesome adulthood! I would have a a great job, a beautiful house, a husband who adored me and the coolest children in the universe! I had no idea how any of this would happen. I figured it would all fall into place, just like that!

But adutling has taught me differently over the last few years. I’ve learned that relationships are really difficult, sometimes, impossible. I’ve learned that some things in life are not as simple as ticking a box. They, in fact, require faith and waiting and saying no a lot and, sometimes rudely, in order to know peace of mind. I’ve learned that nobody but you is going to protect you..

Despite how my life seems to have plateaued, I still look forward to Christmas with my family. This is one of the few little corners in the world where I feel like I belong and I am loved and cherished! I would not give my people away for anything!

And so my prayer for you this Christmas is that you have that same corner where you are loved and treasured! May you feel overwhelming love this Christmas, a love that elates you.

Thank you so much for popping in! You know how much I love having you here. Have a beautiful day! We’ll chat on Wednesday😘

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am writing, Love & War, Soul Stuff

Diamond

Happy Humpday, Dear Readers!

It’s always good to have you here. I hope you have had a good week so far!

November is just flying by and soon it will be 31 days of Saturdays: December! I cannot wait for sun and family and mommy food and endless days! Until that glorious time, yours truly is up to her ears in work so I’m going to keep today’s post short😉

I heard a beautiful saying yesterday and thought I should encourage everybody today:

No matter what flaws you believe you have, remember that therein lies your beauty. Your flaws enhance you and make you all the more dazzling! You are worth knowing and worth having in this world so keep going!!

Thank you for dropping by! Please share any encouraging quotes you have heard this week. I would love to hear from you! I’m sorry I couldn’t stay longer but I call my posts short and sweet for a reason😉 have an awesome week! We’ll talk again on Sunday😘

am writing, Love & War, Prose, Ramblings

Forward

Happy Sunday erbody!

How’s the weather in your corner of the world? It’s been raining in Joburg since last night. It’s the perfect weather for staying cooped up in bed with a good book, a stew on the stove while in the arms of a bearded Nubian King! Wow! That escelated so quickly😂

Today I’d like to share what vaguely resembles poetry, but prefer calling prose… I’ve learned this week that moving on and getting over is dependant on me and not always on outside factors. I tend to play victim a great deal of the time to excuse my own holding on…

Anyway! Here you go! Enjoy the read!

So we’ve been sitting here.

Hunched over this mess,

throwing blame back and forth as though in a tennis match.

I’m tired.

Of sitting.

Of wallowing.

Of spewing accusations at you and wiping upthrown bile from my own face.

I’m moving forward.

You’re welcome to move with me.

Or you can stay behind and wallow on your own.

As always, I appreciating your dropping by for my posts! Your support means the world to me! Have a beautiful week! I’ll see you on Wednesday😘

am writing, Prose, Ramblings, Soul Stuff

Intruders

Happy Sundays Everyone!

What a stressful week! But it’s over and it came with its rewards! I hope yours had some colour in it too🙂 Anyway, let’s get to the day’s topic!

It’s official: I am in love with South African literature❤ I especially love, Mohale Mashigo. I wrote about her debut novel, The Yearning almost a year ago. Come to think of it, I didn’t do that post justice! I adored the novel so much that I gave my copy away to a colleague I met- Bittersweet because I want to revisit that story, but I digress! Mashigo recently released a collection of short stories titled Intruders.

I seldom read more than one novel by any author, but Mashigo has stolen my heart! Her writing is alluring, her stories intriguing and her characters, all people I’d like to call my friends.

In this particular collection, she introduces the reader to a genre of literature called Afrofuturism. She, however expresses a need to tell stories that lie somewhere between a dystopian and a utopian future Africa. She explains it much more eloquently in her notes before delving into these different worlds where everything is familiar in its South African contexts but with completely different, sometimes supernatural and sometimes strange features.

That’s how she has me hanging on her every word in every story of this collection of short stories! I found myself eagerly turning the page and the next story in anticipation for how each tale will unfold all the while dreading (because short stories always tend to be too short) the end which comes all too quickly!

In a nutshell! I’m loving this novel! I’m not done yet, bu I look forward to the rest of it! Find it and give it a try!

Well, that’s all I had to share today! I’m praying for a warrior mentality this week! I hope you too resolve to reach your goals and not to surrender!

Thanks for popping in and have an awesome week, my friendlies😘

am writing, Prose, Ramblings, Soul Stuff

Life Lessons

Hey everyone!

How is the week going? I have been fluctuating, but I look forward to our dates so I have remained consistant in this regard if nothing else! Small mercies!

Can you believe there are 2 months left in the year?! Like I always say: Time flies whether you’re having fun or not!

Speaking of time, am I the only one who’s noticed that there is less and less time to do things lately or am I a fully fledged adult now?

This time of year gets me thinking about my life; what I have or have not yet accomplished. I guess December comes with some kind of stock take of the year. There’s a sense of finality in the air as though someone is going to check in our travel bags to see what we have done with our time. And so October feels a bit daunting as it leads up to the end of the year!

The biggest promise I made myself this year was not to experience the pain of yesteryear.

Yes!! Your worth is not defined by anyone! So stay strong in the knowledge of what you are worth! I vowed not only to know my worth but to act it out, say it out loud and own it! I’ve also come to see that no one celebrates you for doing this. After all, how will they rise if they are not standing on you slouched back? This rang true for me especially yesterday.

Finally, remember that you matter no matter what, even if you only matter to yourself and your Creator!

Well, that’s all the wise words I have for today! Keep your head up, drink your water and love yourself no matter what!

Thanks for dropping by and have a fantastic week😘

am writing, Prose, Ramblings, Soul Stuff

Positive Vibrations

Happy Sunday everyone! I don’t know about you but this particular week was extremely long and equally exhausting! It’s a good thing it’s over, though🙂

Remember when I shared My Afroblogger Experience ? Well I was fortunate enough to meet a fellow blogger that day and he consequently invited me to guest write on his blog for his Positive Vibrations series and mine was posted yesterday!

Please check it out,comment, like and share! I enjoy his writing too so help yourself to his other posts as well, he’s great! Enjoy the read! Here’s the link👇

Adulting

Thank you so much for popping in! Have a fantastic Sunday and a beautiful week ahead! I’ll see you on Wednesday😘

am writing, Prose, Ramblings

I Am Many

Evening, Dear Readers!

Happy humpday! I am looking forward to the weekend and getting some rest! We’re almost there!

I love to participate in all kinds of writing challenges! I find them a great way to interact and get to know people! I found this little gem from The Godly Chic and so I am jumping on that bandwagon! Check out her blog! She always posts encouraging things just when I need them😊

Here’s a brief explanation of #IAmMany I stole from her👇

#IamMany stands for women supporting women. Women encouraging women. Women sharing their skills , their wisdom with one another. Let us be proud of all the titles that we are, because NO woman is just one thing. We are multi – faceted. We are ALWAYS many!

I am a daughter, a sister, a lover, a friend. #IAmMany: a colleague, a teacher, a musician, a singer, a strong, vibrant, beautiful, loving woman! I am nubian, a queen, fierce, God’s child! #IAmMany. I love chocolate and cooking. I am an adventurer a helper. I am here and I am many!

Ok, your turn, ladies! Comment or write your own post of all the amazing things that you are!

Thank you for popping in and enjoy what’s left of the week😘